'ALONE' February 16 2009

Aku merasa seperti seorang diri,,, saat terjebak diantara orang asing. Mereka bukan saudara, kerabat, atau sahabat....
they are orang (Manusia) yang tidak memiliki kasih... saat pencobaan itu datang.... tubuh ini serasa lelah, letih setelah latihan badminton at Weekend in IBOE Koe Badminton Court Cemani.

Saat menghidupkan lighting penanda akan turn right.... Aku serasa menoleh kebelakang untuk mengamati dari jarak jauh ada 2 orang berboncengan yang driving motorcycle ngebut... High speed>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

akupun merasa kaku, karena masih letih.... tapi mau berhenti (posisinya tidak enak)... Mau tambah gas.... tangan ini serasa terlambat.... dan DHUARRRRRRRRRRRRRR terpelanting sejauh 2 meters ..... ke kanan....
dan situasipun mulai panik.... (dalam hati aku berharappp.... please Lord.... cepet berakhir ini event)
akupun hanya bisa pasrah.....
didalam situasi seperti itu.... Orang Dunia hanya bisa saling berpura²tersakit-sakit, berpura²ini - itu (yang penting tidak salah.....) ITu yang ku pelajari selama ini.... mereka cuma bisa seperti itu... nyebut (ihhh.... panas hati ini mendengar kata²mereka yang sok,,,,, nyebut Tuhan) aku cuma bilang please Lord.... Help me.... i'm feel alone here... i want You protect me... in my side.... but....

mereka sibuk satu sama lain.... saling mencari²KESALAHANku... (Itu pasti yang orang dunia lakukan), sipenabrak tadi berlagak.... @%^!%$#%^#@$^ aku cuma bilang MOTHER! PLEASE STOP YOUR SPEAK! sekarang yang salah AKU! dah.... AKU

ini aku lakukan hanya karena aku ingin semua cepat selesai... but LORD (神様 耶稣) mengijinkan aku untuk merasakan hal itu... Merasa sendiri, tidak ada yang membela, seperti Foreigner ... yang difitnah, diinjak². And.... i'm only can pray in heart "please YESUS 神様 耶稣, help me".

dan ada seorang lagi datang (bapak²) yang berlagak sombong , mau menelpon temannya atau siapanya.... Aku cuma isa dalam hati (PLEASE 神様 耶稣, i'm want to give Love, i'm want to forgive them, please help me)
and dia tanya alamat .... dsb


aku cuma jawab simple..... (sambil membuktikan aku tidak kenapa². i'm feel OKay.... dont worry)

The problem was in finished. I'm back to home.... with feel deadfully ill . (Lord 神様 耶稣 i'm feel sick, my heart so broken....., but i'm still want to give forgiveness to them) sampai d rumah i'm hope mother not know about it... but i'm wrong ... my mother was feel first that i'm get something wrong (ILLNESS) .... the injury in my leg.... i'm cannot argument!!! but i'm tell them to not too worry...

and my mother enter home... and said to brother... brother look to angry + to want to help me... but aku bilang ' udah ... gak usah diperpanjang..... ' .... but brother tetep ingin membela... ' WHERE IS THE MEN? WHERE'S THEY? ' aku malah marah and answer ' udah to.. AKU NDAK BUTUH KMU MBELA AKU.... HATIKU MALAH NDAK BERES.... HATIKU MALAH TETEP SAKIT NEK MBOK BELA!!! MANUSIA TU PENGEN NYA KALO ADA HAL KAYA GINI (TABRAKAN / ACCIDENT ) MAUNYA NGGA MAU DISALAHIN... MESTI MAUNYA NYARI KESALAHAN ORG LAIN , AKU NDAK BUTUH KMU MBELA AKU... AKU MAUNYA TUHAN 神様 耶稣 YANG MBELA AKU... HATIKU MALAH ISA LEGA NEK 神様 耶稣 YANG BELAIN... STOP... DONT ANGRY, OR TRY TO HELP ME' .... Kecelakaan itu membuat bagian (Pelindung / slebor blakang motor broken) but... it's okay.... aku coba close my eyes and talk to Lord.... 神様 耶稣 please heal my sick, my injury and etc.... please HEAL MY HEART AND GIVE ME STRENGTH AND ABILITY TO FORGIVE them.... please..... Lord神様 耶稣 YESUS Sonsaeng Nim..... Kamisama.... and i'm try to wrote this in PC... while listen WORShip Song... i'm try to Sung although my Leg and my heart is ILL Injured... but Lord 神様 耶稣 teach us to Give Forgiveness..... we must do it... JiaYou 加油 神様 耶稣 GBU

道 to You All my friend

i'm so want to give you Kamsahamnida!!! Daedan hi Kamsahamnida!!! cause can receive my self whatever things i'm...
My Self with many problem, with many sin, many damage, many wrong, etc.

But i'm so give thanks where ever i'm there, i'm always feel in happiness, feel enjoy this life etc.

For me Friend or Buddy is 1 self that know i'm and i'm knew them too..
So, Friends or Buddy is so important for me....

I'm feel i'm not who? Who am i? so i can feel that grace, that mercy, that feel.
But i'm only can give thanks for all things that have done in my life...

道　to You All　－ ㅡㅛㄹ갸둥 my friend in Solo and in all corner of South Korea
to mr. Lee Myung Bak, to Brother Yong Dae, To 2TKJC, to friend on club Badminton, to Badminton Coach, to all my friend in FS.... etc

THIS POEM IS SPECIAL FOR MY BEST FRIEND!!! PLEASE READ

FRIENDS.....


Someone that COME, while the world leave You.
(Seseorang yang datang, sementara seluruh dunia meninggalkanmu)

Someone that ONLY WANT TO KNOW, WHAT IS THE BEST in Your Self and forgot Your badness
(Seseorang yang mencari apa yang baik dari dirimu, dan melupakan hal yang buruk)

Someone that NEVER TO BUSY, for know and listen Your Problem
(Seseorang yang tidak pernah terlalu sibuk untuk mendengar dan mengerti masalahmu)

Someone that Give You Eat party, without waiting Him (Her) birthday ^_^
(Seseorang yang menTraktir kmu makan tnpa hrs mnunggu hr Ulthny)HEHEHE [just kidding]

PROVERB 17 : 17
A FRIEND PUT LOVE EVERYTIME, AND BE A BROTHER IN THE DIFFICULTY
seorang sahabat menaruh kasih setiap waktu, dan menjadi seorang saudara dalam kesukaran

Hangguk Dictionary at Restaurant, hotel, or public place

give me a glass of water == naegah muhl han kope chuu ship se yoh


where is my room? == nae pang adi itchio?

what's number of my room? == nai pang un myahpan seemneka???


where is my briefcase (coper) ? == na kah bang un adee sumnekahh??

Hang-ul Dict

Please wait me == cham shi kidaryo chushipshioh
non formal version >>> - chamkan manyo

can you bring me to Seoul == ka juseyo Soh'ul

can you help me === hae juseyo


Thanks
====
Kamshahamnida...

Very thanks
=======
Cham kumapsumnida
Daedan hi-kamshahamnida

You're Welcome == Chon maneyo



Excuse me
=======
Choesong hamnida

Please repeat your speak
-==============-
Josong hamnida


i'm sorry sir
=========
sil iye hamnida


i'm
===
nah


i'm don't know
========= na-nun morumnida
i think so
====== kuroke saenggakamnida
i'm not going
======== an gay yoh
i'm want to go
========= kago shipsumnida
i'm want to go to Seoul
============== Soh'ul kahgoh sepoyoh

I'm don't understand Korean
================= Han guk mahrul come hayoh

Hangul Dictionary

We
== Uri

Can we go/shall we go?? == Kahl ka yoh?
>>>
no, we can't go === mot kay yoh
we're not going === an gay yoh

Coba ku lihat ( Can i see) == naege po yo chushipshio

it's mine == naegah sokan kuhsimnida

Hangguk Dictionary

i'm don't understand Korean = hahn guk mahrul come hayyoh


who is your name? == irum-i mwah shimnika?


i'm yo seph == Na-nun Yo Seph imnida
my family name is Lee == Na ui song Lee imnida
what's your family name?
== Tangshinui songun muo shimneeka?


it's my address = ee guphshi nnal chuso imnida


Please write == Susayyoh


Annyong Haseyo == are you okay???
>> Yeh, annyong haseyo == yups


Good morning Mr. Lee == Lee sonsaeng nim, annyong hasimnika
Good morning Brother Yong dae == Yong Dae appa, annyong haseyo/ hasimnika


Good night == annyong hi-chumuseyo



On Calling or greeting (if we meet someone in Street) == Yoboseyo



Good Bye \== Annyong hi-kyeseyo
>> Annyong hi-kaseyoh == Good Bye too

Bye... Good working == Sugo haseyo


See you later == tanyo'o sayyoh
>> do mannap shida == see you later